A young man on the cusp of tasting independence for the first time until his former best friend tries to come back into his life.


Background

Brought to Southwest Arizona as a child, Tonatiuh is an immigrant of Mexican descent and lives in the U.S under DACA. He lives with his single, very Catholic mother. When he was eight years old, his father died from injuries sustained during a construction accident.

After the death of his father, his mother developed an unhealthy reliance on her son as she was unable to cope with the loss and struggled to function day-to-day. Tonatiuh was left to shoulder most of the grief as he had to play the role of his mother's best friend, along with becoming the target of her overbearing and neurotic behavior. In his freshmen year of high school, he sought to apply for DACA as a chance for independence away from her, but then battles with the anxiety and exhaustion of dealing with the system, which further exacerbates his desire for an escape from his life.

He was childhood friends with Isaias where they bonded due to their shared trauma from their fathers' accident, up until their senior year of high school when Isaias suddenly stopped talking to him. As an adult, he attempts to focus on his education and hopes to move to a larger city for university, but his plans are complicated by Isaias’ return into his life.


Personality

Tonatiuh presents himself to be an unassuming and diligent person, only standing out through an eccentric fashion sense. He often tries to prevent any spontaneity as he wants to live an average life and make things easier for himself and his mother.

Truthfully, he resents the obligation he feels to be overly responsible and obedient, as he sees it as just a consequence of dealing with a traumatized mother and his fate being left in the hands of the government. He is actually very two-faced and judgemental and is entirely capable of being assertive. In his relationships, he is quite pushy as he is afraid to be alone and hopes for a romantic partner to whisk him away from his troubles.

He feels a severe lack of control over his own life, coupled with the ever-looming grief over his father, that he attempts to possess said control through obsessive-compulsive behaviors. He has been obsessed with death since a young age, from simple morbid curiosity to incessant fears over death and acting on magical thinking to prevent such from manifesting. He is very unsure of himself and his future and increasingly finds himself unable to cope with his circumstances, sometimes even to the point of anxiety attacks. He often uses his own interests and skills in photography and film as distractions and a way to express the very feelings he suppresses.


Relationships

Tonatiuh

Isaias and Tonatiuh have known each other since they were children, brought together from the accident, and quickly became each other's emotional support.

Because of their mutual experience, they both are very cynical people who always felt they were at odds against the world. They always wanted some kind of validation in their anger towards their circumstances and themselves, and sought this validation out from each other. They reveled in sharing a sort of superiority complex– being judgemental and condescending together, and holding each other at a much higher regard than the rest of their peers.

Despite their apparent closeness, however, they didn’t tell each other everything. Isaias never told Tonatiuh what he did in his sophomore year, and about the regret and paranoia that increasingly weighed on him. He began to resent Tonatiuh’s clinginess and deliberately distanced himself in an attempt to hurt him. This came as a massive shock to Tonatiuh and triggered his fear of abandonment.

When they reconcile two years later, Isaias feels extreme remorse over abandoning him and hopes that Tonatiuh can change him for the better, while Tonatiuh is hesitant to trust him again and is concerned with Isaias’ want to be “fixed”. Still, they attempt to allow each other back into their lives again, and reflect on the feelings they had been keeping bottled up for years.

Raquel

Sister


Trivia